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Melted Ice Cream : 8:54 p.m. : October 15, 2003

My friend admitted that he liked me last night, while we were talking online. Ok, first of all, I am not going to get all giggly and gross and ganfirlywirly because he told me. Actually, i don't know what I think about the whole situation, but it doesn;t really matter because a)he's a camp friend, and b) he has a girlfriend. I think he meant that he liked me at camp. Gah. I think it would be so much easier to just NOT LIKE BOYS. But also a lot less fun for myself.....*giggle* ahem.

I want to take some kind of dance class, preferrably belly dancing or hip hop. Maybe I should call up that woman i used to take belly dancing from and ask her what time her classes are. I stopped taking classes from her because she changed the time of the class and I couldn't make it. But I really liked her, and belly dancing made me feel so good about myself, like a goddess or something. mysterious, dangerously sensual. *shoves writer back inside self* Ahem.

The Sisterhood (%%diary-lotrsisters%%) is having problems. Someone hacked into the Open Diary and screwed around with it and left bad messages towards Ivy and jamie.

And you know what? I am sick of it. People not listening to other people who are just trying to fix things/make things less..icky, for lack of a better word. And that goes for my home social life too. People are so busy voicing their opinions about current issues and stuff and getting hung up on grudges and all that that they don't even stop to check the facts to make sure that they are really representing a valid opinion. For example, not just saying, I hate Bush because he's stupid. But actually having reasons to hate him. And I hate it when people don't give other people a chance to tprove themselves. They just condemn them right from the start, and that just makes everything worse. Narrow-minded people like that only make things worse for the rest of us. People might think they are really open-minded and liberal, but really they are just as set in their opinions and judgments of other people as anyone else. A lot of people I know are like this, everywhere. I myself am even like this, and I am ashamed of it. I wish people could just stop lying to themselves and stop judging other people. I hate it when someone gets a first impression of me, and then I can never escape it. Or when people think they are so right, when in fact they aren't even LOOKING at what's acutally going on, they are just......not even giving anything or anyone a chance.

None of my friends like to take risks. Me, I'm willing to strut around on Halloween in a garter belt, one of those corset-bra things, and red lipstick, because it is an adventure. It is something new, something to experience, something FUN. And most of my friends won't even THINK about trying things like that because they are too shy or self-conscious and I just want to say to them, "GET UP OFF YOUR ASSES AND LIVE A LITTLE!! THERE'S MORE TO LIFE THAT TV AND INTERNET AND STUPID JOKES!!"

Whew.

None of my friends want to go to Homecoming this year. And all through the rally last week, when they were announcing the Homecoming Court, this girl who was sitting next to me kept saying how it was all a popularity contest, and it was all just a fake, and I wanted to say SHUT UP! It's school spirit! I don't see YOU getting out there and helping the school! *back to self* Who really CARES if it's a popularity contest?! At least it gives people a chance to be special, and stand out. Again, it's judging. Just assuming that since someone is pretty and skinny doesn't mean that she is totally incapable of doing anything good. And if someone was NOT pretty and skinny, then that ALSO doesn't mean she can't do anything good, but it ALSO doesn't mean that she has any more right to "win" or any less right to "win" than the pretty girl! I hope that makes sense.

Wow. I started up the computer wondering what I was going to say, and this all just spilled out. Like...melted ice cream.

I guess I'm just going to have to deal with the shortcomings of the human race, or at least the part of it that I'm acquainted with. Hopefully I'll be better at it than I was today.

Oh, I've been making up words. EMTA stands for Evil Math Teachers Association, and it is made up of all the math teachers who are out to get the students of the world. And "geelge" is still being born. Here's the convo:

halladolwen: *geelge*
halladolwen: <<<---can;t spell
halladolwen: *giggle*
RubySoHoRiotGirl: me likes new word
halladolwen: geelge?
RubySoHoRiotGirl: mmmmmm tasty
RubySoHoRiotGirl: *eats geelge*
halladolwen: what's a geelge?
halladolwen: do i get to make it up?
halladolwen: errr....
halladolwen: well
RubySoHoRiotGirl: dunno you made it up so you get to say what it is
halladolwen: errr...ok...
halladolwen: hm
halladolwen: suggestions?
RubySoHoRiotGirl: a small ferret?
halladolwen: heehee
halladolwen: but you just ate one!!
halladolwen: gah!
RubySoHoRiotGirl: yup the fur tickles a bit though lol
halladolwen: heehee
halladolwen: ok, any more suggestions?
RubySoHoRiotGirl: hmmm
RubySoHoRiotGirl: a large collection of giggles
halladolwen: hhmmm...viable, definitely viable

And Max came up with "something squishy behind the toilet," and other people came up with other things. Whee! *ponders*

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