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| OK, let me just say that I have the worst habit in the world - not only do I bite my nails, but I always end up falling for the wrong people. I guess I have a soft spot for jerks. And I can't write exactly what I mean here because there are people who actually know me who read this diary and I am too lazy and it would be an indication of lack of trust if I got a new one (diary, that is). No offense, you know who you are, but I can't really speak freely using names and stuff because you know me. And that really bugs me. And I can't ask you not to read this entry because I know you'll read it anyway. I would read it, if the situation were reversed. I know that sounds horrible but it's unfortunately true. Anyway, let it just be said that I fell for COMPLETELY the wrong guy again, and I feel like an idiot. It keeps happening, as if I have some kind of addiction to jackasses. And I just don't know what to do about it. It would never work anyway, the person whom I have so stupidly....ack. Anyway, it would never work anyway. But still..I have this weakness...merde. Oh god, I just read over the above stuff and I sound like a lovesick little squirmy idiot. Ick. That is definitely NOT how I want to portray myself. Ack. I can't believe this. let's just say I am SO GLAD i do not have school for two whole days. Twelve days until RotK. I've given up the dress for now, but I will make it eventually. Maybe next year, on either September 22nd (It's either Sept or Oct, Bilbo and Frodo's birthday) or March 25th (technically the New Year of the Fourth Age) or maybe even December 17th I will get a bunch of friends together and we will watch all three extended versions of the movies and have a party. And then I can wear my beautiful dress. I really don't know what to do. You know what? I need to go shopping. The thing is, I hate shopping. Once I get my license and a car, it will be so much easier because I can drive myself and go shopping by myself. Oh, for the freedom of those days. I'm incredibly disappointed about the Gathering. I really desperately wanted to go, but I never asked my dad because he would never let me go and stay with strange people and all the good stuff involved. Besides, I have school. I have finals all that week. And I feel so horrible, because it was a once in a lifetime opportunity and I'm missing it. This stuff here is mine, unless otherwise stated. That's why it has my name on it. Thank you. |