halladolwen's diaryCurrent - Archives - Profile - E-mail - Book - Notes - Links - Design - Host Wannabe : 8:54 p.m. : October 02, 2003 |
| I'm kind of feeling like I'm becoming a bad person. Always asking for something, always demanding attention, always demanding respect and peace on Earth and generally being a nosey little idiot who can't do anything right. I don't know why I am who I am, only that sometimes I wish I could change it. I wish I had more friends. I wish I were sophisticated. I wish I were talented, and never lose that telent. I wish I were beautiful. I wish I were rich and famous and people fell at my feet. And then again, I kind of like not being famous, because I feel like I have really earned my friends, and that they don't just like me because I am famous or whatever. But then again, the depressing side of that is that when I lose friends, it's all my own fault. I can't blame it on a box office bomb like movie stars can. If I could be an animal, I would be a tiger or a jaguar or some other wild cat like thing. I want to be sleek and lithe and dangerous and beautiful and deadly all rolled into one. I want to be fearless, daring, fit. And when I look at myself right now, I see none of that. I see someone who is too stupid to realize that if she puts stain remover on a shirt and puts it in the washing machine with other clothes, it will bleach her favorite blue shirt and she will feel stupoid and never be able to wear the ruined favorite shirt again. Note to self: in the next day or two, use the words: nuddy-pants, fiver, froggie, and sporran in a sentence. Goal for the coming weekend. I have nothing else to write, except for the fact that I really really need PotC to come out on DVD RIGHT NOW. Oh, and I watched the trailer for RotK yesterday. It gave me chills up and down my spine. I am suffering greatly waiting to see the movie, but then again, I want it to be in a very long time so I can finish my dress in time to wear it to the showing of RotK. Birthday in less than 6 weeks and counting. This stuff here is mine, unless otherwise stated. That's why it has my name on it. Thank you. |