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Out of Real : 4:31 p.m. : September 12, 2003

I kind of like the freshmen. Only some of them, of course. In my little group, there's Marianne and Carson, who are nice kids. And there's this one guy in my class who I used to go to school with, who's amazingly cool. I feel really sorry for him because he got stuck with this girl who is a 100% perfectionist control freak. I personally like my schoolwork and anything I do to be my personal best, but I don't have a spazz attack if not everything goes my way.

I went to the gym (to work out by myself and not as a class) for the first time in about three weeks yesterday. It was ok. ANd I had the best pizza ever, but sadly, my stomach was hurting too much to enjoy it fully.

I went home and read for three straght hours - A beautiful, sad, grief-filled book called The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold. If you haven't read it already, read it. But have abox of tissues next to you. It isn't soppy, or melodramatic. It just is. it's like the truth put down in words, which isn't too common these days. I love it when writers come out and acknowledge, Ok. There's a lot of b.s. in this world, and my way to deal with it is writing about it. That makes a lot of sense to me, and I just wish I was worldly or even eloquent enough to put everything down in words and have it not sound cheesy or corny.

For the past few days, I have been kind of out of the stretch of real time. Like er....Wednesday (couldn;t remember) when I came home and slept for three hours. Or yesterday, after dinner, I just laid down and read for three hours. I kind of like it - not having to think and being able to just be completely on my own in my own mind for a little while, without having to worry about myself or anyone else. To not have to think. ANd at those times, when I'm not thinking about myself or anyone else, that is the time when I feel most myself, when I can just be and not have to do anything.

I think I'm going to see Edwards Scissorhands tonight. There's this thing in the park near where I live calleed film night in the park. They show a movie (old, new, whatever, no new releases though) every Saturday and Friday - in the park - and it's free. I think I'm going to get everyone to go.

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